Nova – Do you ever feel guilty?

I always feel guilty; I always feel guilty. A part of this happened because I never went to the doctor, I was one of these people, you know, who thought they were just out to get money out of me. And then I still do fight the battle of how much my aliveness is a burden on people, I do fight that. I cost a lot of money in hospitalization and doctor bills; I cost a lot of money and time. I cost of lot of money in—you know, the kids come over now, we don’t just say, “Let’s go here,” they come and we sit and we talk. So I feel like I am, I have, I cost a lot in time and money. But the reality is there’s almost a part of me that in a fantasy would say I’d be a lovely person to miss, you know, you’d have so many wonderful memories that wouldn’t cost you a damn dime.