Sarah – Do you ever feel guilty?

Yes, I felt a lot of guilt in the early days when Ryan was still in rehab. And it wasn’t necessarily for what happened, but for the fact that I was able to do things still in a way that he couldn’t. I felt a lot of guilt to be able to leave at any way at any time. Going to work was painful, I didn’t like to feel like I could get away from it, it wasn’t comforting to me. It was hard for me to even like go to the bathroom because I knew he couldn’t do it the way that he used to, and it wasn’t that easy for him. Pretty much everything—getting dressed, getting up, out of bed, just everything I felt guilt that I could do those things and that he couldn’t. It was really hard to deal with. But I think over time, I just kind of, I think that was part of my grieving process. And over time, those feelings dissipated, and I was able to recognize obviously that I don’t need to feel guilty about those things, but I think that I just felt bad that he was going through that.