Ken – How do you handle anger?

Definitely the emotions are there, and there is anger, there is anger at finding yourself in a position that used to be so easy, to not be able to do that again. And so, from the simple things of pulling things off a shelf, or changing a light bulb, or opening a window—doing simple things around the house, which I kind of took care of the house, and did things, and hammered things and hung pictures. I can’t hang pictures now. And so, there’s a lot of things that you take for granted that you do every day that suddenly, from a wheelchair, you can’t take for granted anymore you can’t do those things. And you try to figure out ways to do it, and then realize “this isn’t working now, what am I going to do?” But it is really difficult for me as a guy, who has taken care of everything in my family, and no one in my family has ever worried. I have two daughters, a wife, I am the man of the house, the dog is female. And I used to do everything. And now suddenly to not be able to do that, it really, you just feel impotent, you feel like you’re not a man because you can’t do the things that you used to do, and now you have to rely on everybody else to do those things. That was a hard place to get through so that I could allow myself to be able to do that. Now, when I call someone to come hang a picture, or when I call someone to do my yard, or to plant plants, or do things I used to do, I tell myself “I’m still in charge.” “I’m still doing this, although I’m now calling other people to do that.” So, my wife still doesn’t worry about it.