Athena – What do you wish you had known at the beginning?

I wish that I didn't have to be so scared all the time that he was going to die, or I was going to lose him. And that I lived on eggshells so long afraid that he was going to get sick, or when he had a seizure, is he going to lose some of his competency? Is he going to end up in an institution because, you know, it just isn't working out at home? I was on eggshells for so many years, and I think I lost a lot of happiness during that time, and if I just relaxed and enjoyed the moment more, and not worried so much, I'd like to have that time back.